I feel so far away
What about how we used to be
We both have a lot going on in our minds
I wish wed help each other like we did once upon a time
The only time I feel OK is on top of you
Which you don't like so I push myself away
Since you did the same for me once upon a time
We're 20/80 me the larger
And that's OK with me
I only wish you'd try harder
We used to pick each other up and hold the other
What happened
I wish I knew
Our love is there and I'm clinging on
Holding you when you don't know what to do
Hopefully we'll figure this out soon
Once you actually get back inside it's odd
Everything there has been moved
Like you were never there at all
Confused you wander around trying to figure it out
Only now you realize you're different than you were
This mess gave you the idea
But it's still not right with you
You miss the old way before you shut the door
I leave to see how you are closing the door behind me
When I get there I pound on your door
Nothing
I pound again I knock gently ring the bell even
Nothing
After waiting awhile you answer saying your fine
I hug and kiss you relieved
But when I return home
I noticed that my door is now locked
Glad that you can smile
I can't find a reason to
Don't worry now
It's me not you
I wanna cut
But I swear no more than twice
Ok fine ten or twenty times
Maybe then that will suffice
I'm not crazy I'm just sad
That you ignored me cheering
Look at who's now sad
I don't get help only leering
Right now I don't wanna be alone
But I am so I could disappear
Waiting for you to come in say hi
That's all it'd take for me to reappear
Of course it's too much to ask as always
So I'm sitting here for kicks just to see
I even write this on my phone
Seeing if I'm good enough for you to text me
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna feel
Just to be happy
For a l
I feel so far away
What about how we used to be
We both have a lot going on in our minds
I wish wed help each other like we did once upon a time
The only time I feel OK is on top of you
Which you don't like so I push myself away
Since you did the same for me once upon a time
We're 20/80 me the larger
And that's OK with me
I only wish you'd try harder
We used to pick each other up and hold the other
What happened
I wish I knew
Our love is there and I'm clinging on
Holding you when you don't know what to do
Hopefully we'll figure this out soon
Once you actually get back inside it's odd
Everything there has been moved
Like you were never there at all
Confused you wander around trying to figure it out
Only now you realize you're different than you were
This mess gave you the idea
But it's still not right with you
You miss the old way before you shut the door
I leave to see how you are closing the door behind me
When I get there I pound on your door
Nothing
I pound again I knock gently ring the bell even
Nothing
After waiting awhile you answer saying your fine
I hug and kiss you relieved
But when I return home
I noticed that my door is now locked
Glad that you can smile
I can't find a reason to
Don't worry now
It's me not you
I wanna cut
But I swear no more than twice
Ok fine ten or twenty times
Maybe then that will suffice
I'm not crazy I'm just sad
That you ignored me cheering
Look at who's now sad
I don't get help only leering
Right now I don't wanna be alone
But I am so I could disappear
Waiting for you to come in say hi
That's all it'd take for me to reappear
Of course it's too much to ask as always
So I'm sitting here for kicks just to see
I even write this on my phone
Seeing if I'm good enough for you to text me
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna feel
Just to be happy
For a l
Help I don't know what to do
Ones sweet ones rude
Ones loyal ones unfaithful
Ones here ones far away
Why can't we go back to yesterday
Please help
One I met on a special day
If I got hurt one would cry one would laugh
The choice is obvious so why
Help sos
Why don't I go why do I stay
My heart is set what if I'm too far gone
I see a future with one but not yet with the other
One I love so much the other I could.
Someone help
I can't leave now
I won't start over again
I care about them both
In the end I'll be alone and maybe lose them both.
Some days its easier to say what's not on my mind than what is. Right now it's three words past present and future. I hate how old wounds get reopen every time I hear a certain song. I worry why I feel so invisible unless I make a nuisance of myself. I'm afraid of what will happen a year from now or even one day. It's not the unknown I'm afraid of it's the ideas I come up with. Anything can happen at anytime. It's crazy to think of.